Unal and I got Married on May 18th 2009
It was a very relaxed day we didn’t want a big deal,it’s not really my thing, I was never the little girl who dreamed of getting married. It really wasn’t and then when my parents got divorce any thoughts of marriage went out the window. All my views on marriage and it being for life time were taken away and smashed into little pieces and I knew from then on I would never get married as there is no point.
I retained this view during our entire relationship, Unal was the same he had no concerns on marriage. We were a good match in that respect.
Then this year Unal said “What do you think” and I jumped in and said “Oh yes anything you say my dear I agree” and he said “well book it then”
It was in those few 2nds I thought “CRAP”
So I did I booked it and we did it. It makes things easier in some respects due to silly laws the UK has and the EU if we go over there to work. It wasn’t because we felt we had to commit to one another I think after close to 12 years together we are quite committed!
I feel no different, if my friends are reading this I’m sorry! I am just not feeling it!
I will say the first 3 days afterwards I was a confused bawling mess and really did feel different like I had lost myself in someway. Shall we say hormonal and leave it at that!
Unal on the other hand does feel different and when I thought he couldn’t get more doting and loving as a Father and a Husband he did I am so glad we’re together My love has grown for him every day, since the day we met and I fell in love with him.
We’re just right for each other 
you’ve been together for so long i doubt the overnight ‘different’ feeling could really be felt at this stage.
but still, this is the bit that seems the most important to me: My love has grown for him every day, since the day we met and I fell in love with him.
xx